Float

All I know is nothing

How can I eat while confusion eats me?

How can I chew while guilt gnashes its teeth?

How can I swallow when I can’t feel my throat?

Who’s there to help me when I’m all alone?

What is right vs. what is wrong?

And what is need vs. what is want?

These are the questions that kill me inside

Taking me over so fear can preside

How do I hurt you by helping myself?

But turn it around and I know even less

Sorry, survival was never my thing

Next time we meet I will greet you with wings

Let’s just lie on our backs and gaze up at the sky

Drifting away ‘til the end of our time

Maybe someday we’ll both be let go

For now we’ll just suffer with the lies that we know

Peace is what we dreaded the most

Making us calm and haunting like ghosts

Just let me wallow in self-inflicted pain

I have nothing to lose; you have nothing to gain