Extra "e"

In your name is an extra "e"
so people always spell it wrong
and they tell me you get mad because you say it is the French spelling
I can see you writing your name carefully on your test papers
and I can see you making the extra "e" bigger than all the letters
just a bit
just so they know it is there
because maybe your parents were French
or maybe it is your dream to run away there
but you hold that extra "e" close to your heart
somewhere I will never be
I know that you and I will never meet
But still, I can see you laughing at me
And maybe even crying with me
Carrying all the weight of that extra "e"

Do my emotions make sense?

I'm the kind of tired where you can't sleep
Like hard rain or car rides at night
Like the sadness you feel when you are so in love
And the love you feel for that pain
Heartbreaking bliss
Like how I imagine the snow
We're all addicted to sadness like this
But I think that's what they call happiness

Today:

Let's fake our smiles and hold back the tears today
Let's fool ourselves as much as we fool everyone else
Let's do a good deed today
Let's make music today
Let's break the law today
Let's be cliché today
Movie clips and lovely montages is the scene we paint
Let's wave to strangers
Let's run away today
You and me, and the other five dreamers
Let's scream like when we were younger
Let's have a nightmare and two dreams
Let's jump through loop holes and worm holes and heart halves to be together
Let's make a mess and not clean it up
Let's spizz and spuzz and spazz through this world
Let's take a trip to the next

Why don't we just live today?

I've found the world has a habit of providing you with the most wonderful things during the times you are most alone.  It is rather cruel that way.  As I sit with the blade, so ready to give up, the bonds that tie me to earth just grow so much stronger.  When everything starts to fall apart the fog clears for just long enough to remind me of the things I would miss.  I am stuck in one point so that I no longer exist in this world or any other, rather, I live alone in the wonders and the fears of my own mind.  I always ask, "What is my reason for existing?" And I always come up blank.  But there is too much love over here and it stops me from pulling the trigger.

Fight or Flight

Look at this mess; we’re covered in snow

Numb through our skin, but fire in our bones

Give it up darling, just hand it to me

Babe, fight or flight was never your thing.

Give in, give up, give your will here to me

Once it’s all over, you’ll be free to breathe

We see how you want to run in the snow

But I’m just not ready to let you go